Well well well…It’s been a few months and what a few months it’s been! Since July, these months have been some of the worst of my life. It all started when my mum was diagnosed with cancer. If you’ve been through something like this, then I need not explain what it’s been like. It’s been excruciating and I’ve been struggling privately. But, through everything, I’ve been learning a lot and I’d like to share with you.

Every time I sat down to write an article over the last few months, I would stare at a blank document and I would feel negative, uninspired and empty. I started this blog to share realism- I don’t want to pretend like everything is perfect! But, I also don’t want to pass on my negative head space. So, as a solution, I thought I’d sit down today and write my negative thoughts down- as I’m sure some of you share these negative thoughts with me! However, I figured that for every negative thought, I could counteract it with a positive one!

Positivity is a choice and exercising your brain to become more positive is just as important as physical exercise. I like to call it soul fitness. My dad died in front of me as I was holding his hand, I was sitting next to my mum when the doctor said “it’s cancer”, I watch the news and I see all the horrible things happening in the world and I’m aware of the even more horrible things that are happening that are being hidden from us. Trust me, I know life is bloody hard and when someone who has no idea says to you “be positive”, you just want to fly kick them in the face. No? Just me? My bad. But you know what, positive thinking is the best medicine to the poisons of life.

Warning: I may sound like a right old bitch over the next part of this article, but I’m keeping it real with ‘y’all, soooo forgive me. (But don’t lie to me, you can be a bitch too.) So here we go, here are seven thoughts that weigh my mind down regularly.

1) I’m learning who my real friends are and I can count them on one hand. I used to go out for coffees and dinners most nights of the week with all different friends and now, I don’t want to see or talk to most people because I’m disappointed in them.

That’s life. I’d rather have 5 close friends than 50 acquaintances. Quality over quantity. Plus, I save more money, have more family time and don’t have to put up with the fake bullshit of people who don’t even truly care. Bye, Felicia.

 

2) I hate everyone. (I say this a lot, as a joke and…not as a joke haha.)

No, I don’t hate everyone. All it is, is that I can’t relate to everyone. I disagree with some people’s choices.  I don’t like lies, back stabbing, cheating, nastiness, fake fronts and other things like that because I simply just can’t relate to someone who does these things. That’s all it is. Again, that’s life, if we were all the same-how boring. At least that has helped me filter down to those 5 good friends.

 

3) I’ve seen too much and been through too much compared to other people my age. None of my friends can relate to me and I can’t talk to them about these issues because I don’t want to depress them. Everyone’s life is so much easier than mine and people are saying such insensitive things to me.

No, not everyone’s life is easier. Everyone has their own problems and even if they aren’t like yours, there’s someone out there who is going through something very difficult as well. At least you can be a rock for your friends when they need you, because you’ve become so strong and experienced. I am better equipped for life and wiser now.

 

4) There are people who gossip about me and seem to not like me, even though they’ve never gotten to know me. Why?

Because they’re jealous, insecure and threatened. BYYYEEEE FELICIAAA, or should I say, Yiasoooouuu Toulaaaa. 😉 No, but in all seriousness, it isn’t possible for every single person to like you. They might not like how you look, there might have been a misunderstanding, or they just plain don’t like your personality! It doesn’t mean that they are right about you, it means that the problem is theirs, not yours. It’s okay! Eliminate them from your mind! Again, that’s life.

 

5) I hate being Greek because of my job.

Being Greek has been the essence of who I am as a person since I was a child. It’s my identity and I love being in Greece. Don’t let the negative people poison the one thing that you have always truly loved. Perth Greeks are not a representation of all Greeks. Love your family and friends and don’t worry about the others.

 

6) Facebook and Instagram can make me feel gross, but I can’t delete it because it’s how I keep in touch with overseas friends and family.

Log out for a little while, turn the phone off and live in the moment. Let your mind be present.

 

7) I’m scared of jinxing myself or being jinxed.

Look around you. There are people boasting, showing off, over sharing and allowing themselves to be happy and excited. They are just fine! Why do you think you won’t be? You are allowed to be happy! You don’t have to be scared. Just as you feel the sadness, feel the happiness and live in the moment. Whatever will be, will be.

 

There we have it. I feel a little “naked”, as I’ve let you in to some personal thoughts! Can you relate to some of these? What are some other thoughts that you feel? Try and counteract these thoughts with positive ones as much as you can. Keep the balance and as cheesey as it sounds- work on your soul fitness. Remember that for as long as I’m around, you are not alone in your problems. 🙂

Lot’s of love,

Magda